Finding My Gate of Boundary: 20 Years of Solitude and the Birth of My Art Business
Digital Art “Gate of Boundary; Finding Freedom Through Art “
Life in Australia: The Start of My Solitary Journey
It has been about 30 years since I started living in Australia, and nearly 20 years since I began living alone. I have faced many difficulties—disappointment in relationships, divorce, and friendships—and there were times I felt such loneliness I dreaded coming home after work.
The most challenging time in my single life was when I became sick. Although kind friends offered their help, I stubbornly disliked relying on anyone. I was determined to overcome it myself, fueled by a strong desire to rebuild my life on my own terms, free from outside influence.
The Joy of Being My Own Boss (and the Goldfish Factor)
Since my blood type is O, I wouldn't call myself a meticulous or overly neat person, but I absolutely hate it when someone touches my belongings. Years ago, when I lived in share houses, I had experiences living with people who were incredibly messy and dishonest.
I still recall the stress that it caused.
This is precisely why my current life is the greatest gift. I am the boss of my own home, and there is no need to discuss or fight with anyone about the details of life.
Now, many people my age are focused on caring for children, spouses, or pets. I love animals, too, but for financial reasons, the only family I have is my small goldfish. Yet, this life, where I can keep my own pace alongside my goldfish, is what truly rewards me. During the day, I can dedicate ample time to my creative activities like acrylic painting and blogging, and at night, I relax by watching Amazon Prime movies—all decided by me.
The Artist’s Hustle: Self-Management in a Year
The freedom to decide everything at my own pace is wonderful, but since I started working from home as an artist and blogger, a new challenge has emerged: self-management.
In fact, I only seriously began my journey as an artist about a year ago. When motivation strikes, I might work late into the night in one stretch, or I might get so absorbed that I forget to eat. I sometimes wish someone would impose rules! However, this very free and chaotic time is, paradoxically, the source of my creativity.
Protecting My Inner Peace with the Gate of Boundary
This independent lifestyle and creative activity are the result of my own internal transformation.
My mother, worried for me, often told me I should find a partner. I understand her parental concern. However, a long time ago, a wise old Dutch friend, who was my father's age, taught me a crucial lesson: "True happiness lies in not depending on anyone or anything. You need to find happiness within yourself."
I didn't fully understand that advice then, but I do now. If you are unhappy with yourself, no one can make you happy.
Now I love my own time and life, and I know exactly what brings me joy.
Just as losing freedom is the most painful punishment, I want to carefully protect the peace and freedom I have won for myself. It is from this strong feeling—of setting necessary internal limits against external negativity (like the recent scammer comment or past disappointments)—that my original work, Gate of Boundary, was born.
Having learned independence through living alone and starting to create a rhythm for my life through art, I want to share the importance of this "self-made boundary" through my online activities.
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